I don't have much advice (I still struggle with a lot of things myself), but good heavens, he hasn't half given you the run around! Your feelings must be all over the place.
I like the sound of what the other guys have said: just focus on your own life now, and move forward with that. You're not really starting from the same point you were back in 2013/2014, you're way further forward than that now, and have so much more knowledge, experience and strength.
