They put me on an ssri when I was 5 months pregnant just a few days after BD. I was on that but 3 weeks later my husband came back so I never really knew if the medicine helped me or if I just felt better bc H was back. I kind of took myself off it even though I shouldn’t have, but then again when D was 6 weeks, h and I decided to separate and I was a complete wreck again and my doctor put me back on the ssir. But again, h came back so I didn’t feel I really needed it because I felt ok. And I know it’s not good to do that but I don’t have any experience with medication or anything like that. I have a call into my doctor to see what they suggest. I do know I shouldn’t be feeling as awful as I feel everyday.
But I will say tonight I stayed super busy. I got home from work and laid a blanket in the yard for the baby while I did some gardening and then decorated the front of the house with some Halloween decor. I then made myself a nice healthy dinner, fed the baby, bathed her, got her ready for bed and cleaned up. Got my bedroom organized and cleaned and put some new clothes and I feel a lot better about myself tonight than last. Just keeping my mind occupied as much as possible. I know the morning will be a whole new battle so just embracing this feeling for now.
