Back again

[stacey9]

Hi all

Haven’t posted here in ages, a few of you may remember me. I am now divorced and I survived. A couple of years ago ExH started flirting, paying me lots of attention etc. Things progressed and it turned into a bit of a fling. Very exciting and passionate and I was completely caught up in it all.

This continued until a few months ago and we saw each other when we can. He finished with OW and I really thought a reconciliation was on the cards. I did not pressure or pursue him, I didn’t ask any questions I just floated along on air, blissfully happy and completely in love.

Then he became a little distant. The warning signs were all there but it has knocked me for six again to hear he has been seeing someone else. He says they are friends who enjoy each other’s company. I am gutted. She is a lot younger than me. Now it is obvious he was only filling time with me, waiting for something else to come his way.

We were getting along so well , the kids were happy we were doing things as a family again, although they have no idea we were more than friends.

So why am I posting here knowing fine well this is all my own fault and I’ve only myself to blame?

It’s because I have no one else to talk to about it. Friends and family witnessed my near breakdown the first time he left me and would be furious I became involved with him again. I’m so sorry I did too but it felt like a fairytale to be with him again. I felt safe and happy.

I have not shown him I am upset although I’m sure he knows. He said he still had feelings for me and is not sure he’s doing the right thing.
I would be happy to hear any words of advice and wisdom, although I know I deserve the gold for how not to DB.

Feel free to be as brutal as you like xx

Thanks for reading.