I just feel like he is just going to keep going just as things were. He will come over tomorrow on his time, I will leave, I will come back and he will leave, he will go to OW's house, and it will all just continue as it has been. And I am just not ok with it. I cant live everyday knowing he is off with another woman. I feel like I will have to tell him I am going to file. I dont want to. I just cannot keep going everyday like it has been with him just pretending he isnt doing something wrong when I know he is. It is killing me too much.
He seems like he just wants to keep me hooked incase he wants me again one day, and thats just so wrong. Like he isnt completely ready to let go but he doesnt want to work on us either. And I dont think I can stick around in the middle anymore. You guys are obviously stronger than me. If I felt hope, I might be able to wait it out and see if his A fizzles and he comes back, but I dont think I can do that.
