It's coming up to BD anniversary time (11 October), so I'm feeling a little angsty I guess. I had a nightmare last night, woke up at 3.30am this morning and haven't been able to get back to sleep.
Trying to appreciate how far I've come. One of the ways has been to be able to stand pretty far back from it all and see some major patterns.
Something I already knew, but has really struck me this morning. In the space of 8 years I had 3 major losses (as well as my mum being diagnosed with a degenerative illness, and a court case against an ex work colleague).
2 of those major losses were family members I was really close to. I didn't get any support from my XH over those. And I didn't get any support over the court case either. That's pretty crappy behaviour from a spouse in my eyes. I deserved better than that.
I'm going to make today the best day I can for myself.
