Kech, I relate to you so much so it’s hard to give advice. I know what it feels like to be physically ill/ hurting over missing him. Wishing he was home with you and the baby. He’s on my mind 24/7 it’s awful. I also have a hard time DBing. Lastnight he was in a good mood and I finally said to him can we talk?? He actually said yes and listened to me and although he had his “wall” up and I didn’t get much in return it was the first time he agreed to sit down and talk. I basically told him for our kids I need to “let go” and I can’t keep living like this it’s not fair to them. I have noticed a big difference in his attitude around me since DBing. He is more calm / sticks around longer. I get what your Moms point is with being honest. I’m sure at this point though your husband knows exactly how you feel about him as well as mine does. Everyone is right when they say we have no control and they need to realize it for them selves. Every day that goes by they seem further and further away.
