Let me just say this...you have not ruined your life. If you are working from home and using a computer, I don't consider that hiding behind a computer...you are making a living. His comment about this is nothing more than a bunch of BS and an excuse for what he's doing.
Your h is looking for any excuse to brow beat you down and make you feel guilty for whatever he says or does. Your h is the only one who is responsible for making himself happy...that's not your job.
As for the ow, she's been in the picture quite some time and that could explain all of his behavior and comments. I want you to know that you are not alone...we all have been down this road and some are just starting out. Do not allow this man's behavior and comments get to you. Continue as you have been and know that you are the prize and you can hold your head up high because you are still honoring your vows. Can't say the same about your h. Please, please do not react to his comments...they are just poor excuses for bad behavior.
Come back here and post, i.e., vent, ask questions, etc....but thinking about possible suicide is not the answer for anyone. There is always a solution to every problem...we just have to be patient and find the solution.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
