Dropped off d4 this morning. Had breakfast at w house. We brought the positive energy. W is distancing herself. Says it shouldnt be offensive and it’s ok. She feels like she’s hungover every day and hasn’t been drinking.
She told Me how happy she was and she has butterflies and loves me. Then she pulls away and feels worse... hello?! She seems only to be able to use the emotional side of her brain. I think sometime soon I have to have a blunt conversation with her. Yes it’ll be critical and she’ll probably cry. But wtf I can’t keep doing this to myself. Yes I want it to work.
I guess back to being less available and not reaching out. Looks like no day date to creek tomorrow. If she says she does want to go I don’t even know what to say. I’m not cool with scraps and back and forth. It hurts.
She sees the 180s is attracted to me. Knows I’m a great guy.
Haven’t paid Oct support.
H: 33 W:32 M: 5 T: 8 D: 4 BD: 6/2017 MO: 6/2017 House sold: 6/28/18 W wants to build friendship / relationship- 9/18 Paying $ support since 7/18. Physical Reconnect- 10/18 W Starts- IC / MC - 10/18
