Seeing people means counseling. I have just lost myself. My mom looked at me today and said"you aren't yourself anymore". I had been getting betted, nothing happened except I woke up one night and couldn't breathe (panic attack) I went ahead a drive to my new friends house the next day on no sleep but I wanted to see her. I had another panic attack there and went to the hospital. They gave me meds and calmed me down but when I left the next day I just decided to get a hotel and be done with it. Sometimes just total darkness is better than any light that might come later. I failed at this game
