Thank you so much for that. He is known to temp check quite a bit and I am not very good at what to respond. I wish it was easier to not think about him and her. It runs my mind. I haven’t pursued him in a long time, but all day today I just wanted to text him and ask him to come over. I’m really drowning in my own thoughts.
Night time used to be okay for me. I would come home from work and just be with the baby and feel ok. And now for some reason even the night times are rough. Just had a good cry in bed. He told me all of these things just 2 days ago, and whether or not they’re true or not, he just doesn’t show it. I never knew that pulling away would be so hard for me. I thought I was doing it all along honestly, but clearly not. And now that I really am, it’s so hard. I just really feel like I’m giving up on something I would never give up on. Somehow I’m still so in love with him.
I wish I knew how to gain his respect back. Sometimes I think I definitely have, but then sometimes I am not so sure. Monday’s are hard. Anyone’s words help. I really thank God for this board
