I took the baby for a run once I got off work. Came home, fed her, bathed her, and now I’m letting her play and all I want to do is text H. I almost feel like I’m pulling away too much, creating even more distance between us. Which is why he said he doesn’t like the awkwardness. Am I just making it worse by being so distant. He doesn’t seem to be reaching out like he was on Friday. I know it takes time but this is such torture. I want to just text him to come over and talk.
I know I would regret it so I won’t. But I just really hate feeling like this day in and day out.
