Thank you BluWave. I did read her posts and I feel her situation is very similar due to our age / young children.

I’m having a really hard time. I’m doing the best I can DBing. Studying to take my RN boards , yoga , hiking , looking great ect.

I’m getting discouraged for the fact my husband actually filed for D. He filed and held on a month to the papers to serve me. Are there any success stories where a divorce was actually dismissed ?? Also , the less R talks I just feel him drifting further away. I feel like I’m at a breaking point I just want to scream and be honest and say look is D what you really want ?? He was over for dinner lastnight and things are so happy / normal when we are together it just doesn’t seem real / right.

Last thing , I’m almost done with reading divorce remedy. I know it’s a big no no here but I feel like the book would be beneficial for him to read ? Atleast the first half. It has a lot of great advice about marriage / divorce in general. Almost like therapy without going to therapy. I highlighted stuff that could open his eyes a little no matter what happens with us. Still a no no?