Been a few days since I have posted, I caught a cold this weekend i think after I tutored at the middle school which is. A germ incubator. My H went to a wedding of a friend where he was bartending, he invited me but I declined because he would be working and I would not now a soul. And I am trying to give him some space.
I found us a therapist who specializes in Emotionally focused therapy...Never heard of it before but I spoke with the Dr and told him a bit about our situation and he said he has had a lot of success with this kind of therapy. I am scared but hopeful. My personal therapist wants me to do 4 mores sessions with him before I start with MC, he wants to put me on new antidepressants. I also started journaling and am trying to start a book club to keep myself busy.
My H asked me to sign some legal papers giving me Power of Attorney if he is incapacitated or dies, and also asked me to sign papers so we could write off our Charity givings. I know i should not look into things but I cant help but think why sign these papers if he is planning on divorcing me? Just seems weird.
We are leaving in 2 weeks to see our son, and I have tried to be pleasant around my H, he is stressed out and overworked and seems irritable. I feel like im walking on eggshells sometimes, and then if I fall asleep and he is still up he seems pissed that I have gone to sleep. I am getting mixed messages from him. I got a new haircut and i am trying to look nice and getting out of the house more to be with friends. I made a pot of soup this morning and plan on being gone when he gets home. i also plan on working part time when i get my license in the mail and can job hunt. I know it has to be for me and not him..but it is hard.
