Yup... it all eats at you.

So, what are you going to do? You are going to get busy. You are going to focus on yourself. You are going to pour your energy into doing some helpful reading, going for a walk, doing an art and craft project with your D, start keeping a gratitude journal.

You are going to move in the other direction AND rather than you wondering what he is doing he might start to think what are YOU doing.

Remember, there is nothing you can do to MAKE him come home but you can easily MAKE him not want to.

Look, we all cave to do things we shouldn't. This is a process. Pick yourself up and move forward and try to take yourself out of pursuit mode.

HUGS!