Yes, there was alot said between us and it didn't make one bit of difference. Obviously she thinks the grass is greener no matter what. Today I've been thinking about alot of things. I realize that the only way is to step completely back and let it run its course. I have absolutely no control of anything she does whether it's good or bad. I can see a train wreck in the making. So sad to watch. My kids don't deserve any of this and I'm trying so hard to protect them from it.
I do feel helpless and at times very weak. I know that's a total turn off for W. I worry about what the future holds for everyone especially the kids. The sooner I can move on the better off I will be. I need to get out and meet new friends that I can forget about this hell. My expectations need to go away. My hopes need to be less. I need her to sense that I'm moving on. I know WW can say thing that are crushing. Probably shouldn't believe everything or anything at all but I asked for it. Time for me to toughen up. GAL and be a better version of me.
ME 47 W 38 M17 T20 Separated 5/20/18 D-bomb 7/9/2018 Nothing Filed 4 kids ages 6, 10, 14, 15
