DB / Detach- Will we ever piece it together

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Thanks ovr. Talked to IC. Important for me to be in therapy I think as I need to be strong, consistent and positive. Be the man she’d be a fool to leave and just enjoy my picnic / life. Remember she’s not the center of my life and continue building my future and passions / life’s purpose. She is an important piece as hopefully my partner and wife but separate from me.

We have been talking so I havent ignored her. I try to distance myself a bit because then she comes toward me. But I’ve been consistent for the most part. IC says I need to set boundaries and the push and pull will not end well. I talked about this to w and we are on the same page for the most part.

W has been sick and is overtired with D4. But they did watch my lacrosse game last night on live stream and D4 was yelling there he is, there he is. I see him! Pretty cool and I thanked W told her it meant a lot to me.

Journaling about boundaries and balance. Trying to keep everything in check but I can’t help but think about seeing her. Going to try to plan a date Wed so it’s not all about sex and parenting. We both agreed we want to date and build the connection in other ways besides not physical. Think I’m going to pick up food and tell her to be free We’d during d4 school and go on a hike / picnic and nature preserve.

Hard for me to trust her words from a few days ago from recent history but going to give her the benefit of the doubt trust her and see if we can make this thing work