Back Again

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Thank you guys. Sincerely. Reading the encouragement really does help. Knowing others are on the same path, makes it more real. I hate the fact that good people have to go through this too. But, that others are ahead of me on the path, brings some sort of odd comfort, because you can see where I am at behind you and can call back and tell me its ok to keep moving forward.

I am systematically cutting her out of my life and will reduce the amount of time I have to see her to hopefully only once or twice a week. I will be here for my children and getting caught up in everything doesn't allow me to do that.

I never want to feel that low again. But I will be better prepared if it does happen. I wanted to do this without medication. But several people I talked to, told me all it can do is help. I have a history of depression, but this takes the cake.

I am trying to figure out why this is so much harder the second time.

I know this is a process, I know that this cant last forever. But dang is this painful journey.