Kech, everything Blu said you needed to hear. While I think you did good it was based on how low you were feeling this week. Do you have strides to make, be absolutely, but you could have done a lot worse.
WAS especially WS do have a struggle internally. I saw it with my W and documented it in my threads. She described it like being in the drive thru at McDonald's, you know the double drive thrus? Should she go to the right or left? Positives and negatives to both, so she's stuck at the fork trying to decide.
Think about it! That's a good thing! That shows he hasn't moved on to the OW and forgotten you like you feared.
But you still have work to do!
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018