Journaling … I have spent more time focusing on myself as I went DARK with my H .. I am starting to feel some changes in me in every aspect of my life..i am simply not sitting around waiting on him to do something. it is actually liberating .. I am not as anxious as I was, I am sleeping better, I am not looking at my phone all through the day..i actually get so busy that time has been escaping me..
I am still of the mindset that I want a new and better marriage with my H , but i feel i am no longer waiting around for it to happen at the expense of me simply living life...
I have met some great people and i am out doing things now simply because i want to.. i am having fun, enjoying life..i have been DARK now for 2 weeks and i feel calmer.. my thoughts are racing as they have been for the last 3.5 years..
what a difference it makes when you decide to do something for yourself .. this isn't a fake it til you make it thing now.. i just let go of H.. i still love him.. i would still like to have a marriage with him.. but im not chasing him anymore, Im not wondering what he is doing 24/7..im not planning my day around hoping he will contact me..
