Well I had my IC appointment and didn’t go as I thought. She basically said she sees no hope of him changing and to file for divorce. She said next time I come she will give me good lawyers contact info.

I didn’t expect that to be the response somehow. I’m not ready to file for divorce. But it sounds like no one thinks my husband will come out of this fog. She said he sounds like he has an addictive personality. I feel even worse than I did when I went in. Now I have to see H and if I thought I wanted to cry to him before, man oh man now I really want to. I don’t want to face that this is really what my life is now. I do not want a divorce. I can’t even believe that’s the way that session just went.

She said it sounds like sometimes he misses me and the family but not enough and that this is who he is now.