SD.
Stop beating yourself up.

That was a rotten thing for her to say.

You should tell her that it was a rotten thing to say. Loving her is not loving a dream and it is not something you did wrong. Your feelings are just hurt.

All the best.
-NOPkins-


I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.

-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect.
-An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.