Need Guidance moving from new comer to MLC,

[marina7]

Peace,OneArt and Kyh and DnJ

Good evening my dear friends.

Well court rescheduled as GAL needs more time.

I am now in a place where I no longer get disappointed
about court. I know God has a plan.

I still get angry not knowing what's taking so long to
have siblings together that's all I want.

W is again in Monster mode. I financially am drowning
I ask for help for some cloths our kids are growing fast.

W response is the money I get in child support is enough
Btw under $400 a month that's is emergency court order
Till W does financial affidavit. Btw W has not done
They been asking and nothing W is pushing it longer.

In the meantime I am putting all I can on my cc. While
W has a new car, buys new clothes constantly.

I know it doesn't matter to me. If I didn't need help I
Wouldn't ask for a penny.
I am going to food pantry to feed us. Crazy right
While W is living life.

But is ok I tell myself kids and I are happy W is so miserable
Is scary to see how bad she looks.

As I say to myself every morning
One day at a time
One hour at a time
One minute at a time
One second at a time

D10 been quiet and sad. D10 sits next to me and holds my hand and
Just sit there with me. I just say I am here. D10 says I know mommy thank you
S10 been angry again very concerning as I told mediator he needs to be home please
S9 also in hos little world. He has created a monkey world that's is his
Safe place when at W home. S9 said mom your in my monkey world always
He is a sweet little boy.

I see pictures of the trio's 2yrs ago they had smiles ear to ear. Now
I put pictures side by side those smiles are gone. It breaks my heart
How MLC can destroy not only their life but innocent children's
Crazy. But truly sad.

Well back to mediation which I know it won't get nowhere W has made it
Clear. I'll see you in trial and let's not forget the text I was sent
I will lose everything if I go to trial.

Been sad again. Just sad for my kids. I never wanted to give them
This life. Struggling, wondering if I have enough for rent. Is just crazy.

I know God has his plan. I am here waiting patiently.