Don't guilt trip him. Otherwise he will feel forced to do something he does not want to do. You cannot force him to come back. You cannot force him to love you.
I know it stinks. I know it hurts. And I know you want relief from this pain. And you want it now. If there was a way I can snap my fingers to make the pain stop, I would do it.
But I cannot. As painful as this situation is for you right now and as hopeless as you are feeling, you are on the right track. Trust the process.
Have you joined any social groups? A runner's group? What are your hobbies?
