Oh gosh, kech I feel like a hot mess most times with worrying over debt, job search, my son's school and possible upcoming after school care, etc.
I am very bad at mind reading and trying to figure every little thing he says and does. Its so hard to stop but lately his behavior has just angered me so its easier to not think about his issue right now as I look into job hunting and my son. H is selfish, and doesn't seem to care that he dumped the house, our pets and childcare all on me alone. Its tiring and frustrating but I'm going day by day. He hasn't served official paperwork yet even though he has a poor draft agreement written up to go over with me. I told him I'll talk about it when I'm ready. I'm just worrying about me right now. He wanted to be soooo happy yet he is not happy and not at peace in his lonely apartment. He says hes fine but everyone can tell how miserable he is. I don't feel bad for him anymore. He's teary eyed and cries when he talks about missing our old times together yet will get a wall up and say hes fine and over everything. He has issues he needs to resolve on his own. I have my son to think about.
Together for 13 years, married for 8. H is 46 I'm 40 S is 6 Bombdrop in April 2018 Still in limbo as of 2019
