My WAS - looking help and thanks in advance PART 4

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God and I forgot today until counseling that she got mad at me last night, maybe I was playing a bit of a game when I locked her out of the MBR. She was being rude about me helping her change the sheets so I locked the door. When I let her in she was screaming and being rude and then she hit me. I was able to dodge it mostly, it was more of a smack than anything. It hurts more in my heart than physically. But she did this a few times back in May/April as well. It reminds me of my dad who would give us excessive beatings growing up. I earned some but he always went too far. I noticed I smacked my puppy way too hard a couple weeks ago and it reminded me of this so I've thought about it some since then and promised myself to not act like that. It's just crazy to feel so terrible that you do that to someone (or your puppy).

I guess that says a lot too about what she thinks of me. I really need to wake up.