Thank you Blu! Love your insight. I am having horrible anxiety because now they I have begun DBing there has been NO relationship talks in the past couple of weeks. I used to email novels excessively and I’ve stopped that. I’m just discouraged that no relationship talks means done forever.

There has been no affair discovered yet but it would be the only thing that explains any of this behavior. He is a police officer like I mentioned before and has been drowning himself in work. Working day shift 8-4 pm and then details sometimes all night or overnight. (I have proof he FaceTimes the kids from them)

His bday is Saturday and I want so bad to ask him to come over for cake with the kids but I know that’s probably wrong. It’s going to kill me the thought of him having fun without me. When I asked him last if he was happy he sed he was happy not being around the “negativity” anymore but missed the kids terribly. I just want my family back. I want him so badly. I literally get a tightness in my chest about how much I miss him.

It seems like when I back off and don’t pressure he does ask a little more personal questions to me and seems more upbeat. As far as a divorce there will be no trial / discussions of that until February but I feel like every day that goes by he is drifting further and further away. He has been iffy re MC before. I know we would benefit hugely from it but I don’t know if I should bring that up again? frown uhh this is so hard. Off to Yoga that should calm me down