Saw my therapist yesterday, and he thought it was very positive that my H was open to MC. He said that even though the H is giving me some mixed messages,i.e. still might want to D, but still planning trips together (to see my parents), that he still loves me...but doesnt feel romantic towards me...buys me gifts etc, .....that he is confused and that I need to stay patient and not focus on my terrified feelings of profound sadness, self loathing and an identity crisis.
So today I am applying to get my cosmetology license updated and then apply for a job asap. I am scared to go back to a job, my job has been a mom to my son for the last 18 yrs. i am going to go part time to start. I go back to tutoring one hr a week and start my Spanish lessons tomorrow evening. I think this is a good start to GAD.
I also feel like the dust is settling with getting me son onto boarding school and now that he is gone I feel like my identity is gone. I no longer have a job of being his mom and it hurts. I know at his new school they are caring for him well but I still yearn to be with him like we were everyday, although it was HARD because he is on the autism spectrum. And now my H seems to want out, my heart just hurts from it all and i feel like im drowning in pain.
Does anyone have any success stories about MC, specifically when things looked bad?
