Ya, Blu has made it really clear that theres NO point in asking why or trying to figure everything out. When her husband did come back, she said she asked him questions and she was rarely ever right in her thinking. Its torturous truly. I am working all day at my computer just thinking in the back of my head, why is he doing this or that. Is he planning on getting a house with this OW. Is he really not missing me at all? Is he pulling away so much because now SHE is who he wants to care for and protect and take care of? Will he love her, marry her, and have such a happy life with her that he will never regret any of this? How AWFUL would that be for me goodness. I have felt all along like he would regret this. I have handled this with my head held high, I have kept my dignity and grace for the MOST part, and for what? Really, for what? If hes just going to do what he wants to do and may end up in love and happier than ever in the end, then why did I keep myself so composed all this time when I could have easily handled it very differently.
I just question so many things. I know NOTHING about him and OW, but I know he has allowed for people in his new circle to be aware of it, and that alone is enough to make me sick. Im so afraid she will be this perfect woman for him and he will NEVER ever miss me and will be so happy about all these choices he has made.
Are these fears normal?Theyre killing me and I know I need to stop doing this to myself. It is just my mind takes over!
