MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART XII

[ItHurts]

Well it was a combination of both Nicole, the thoughts presented here from posters as well as me taking a couple days to digest everything. So both things had a role in leading me to this decision. Yes, I too feel I have the upper hand here because I just know she wants me around. The problem is that she wants me around on her timeline...not mine. As long as that's the case and we're not moving towards R I'm just not at all interested in spending time with her anymore.
But yes, I don't believe for a minute that she's going to go away...some time may pass, but she'll be wanting me to spend time with her again soon. I'm just not doing it anymore and if she gets to a point where she asks me why...I'll just tell her. If she doesn't ask then she can stew with her thoughts.

That's why I'm getting out while I do still have the upper hand to some degree insofar as I know she won't be happy not seeing me at all anymore. Maybe that will be the kick in the butt she needs to realize she's only going to get more of the same dating new men, that being her constant complaints that essentially say they are not me. She will never have what she had with me in terms of the things she complains about ( ie: all men our age look "old" to her, no man is endowed as I am, no man doesn't drink alcohol to some degree regularly, etc. These are the things she has repeatedly complained about and either directly or indirectly compared other men to me. So I think you are right in that I do have the upper hand here because if she's STILL comparing men to her ex of 4 years ago...that tells me loud and clear she has unresolved feelings. She will not find one like me and I know it and I think she knows it.
However she's on her own now because I am done. She knows where I'm coming from now and can do with that knowledge whatever she wants. I'm just keepin'on keepin' on Nicole.