Justsad, I think you are right about that, about being on here and constantly focusing on it. Right now I find that I am SO distraught, I will come on here just to see if anyone has responded and can help me feel a little stronger. Right now im just so low. Even through my busy-ness, I cant shake the sadness. Makes me sick to my stomach.
I wish I could just stop thinking about him. And stop thinking about him and OW. I dont know anything about them, like Blu said. But I have certainly made up a ton in my mind.
I honestly dont even know why he comes here anymore. He always says things to me like "You just wish I would just disappear dont you?", and i have never ever said anything like that to him. It makes me think that thats just what he wants to do. He has said it multiple times now. He comes here and just hangs out with the baby for an hour or 2, falls asleep on the couch and then I come home and wake him up and he leaves. I dont know how thats enough for him.
I guess it doesnt really matter, I just still get caught up in how he has all this free time for OW now. If I can get past the fact that hes building a new life and relationship, then I can get through this. but i cant get past that quite yet. I hope soon.
