Here we go again.

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A few days ago WW was getting some old clothes and shoes ready to donate. I was kind of sickof limbo and not really knowing what is going on with with R and her talking to OM. I told her to call the lawyer because I am done. I kinda ment it. This stress is exhausting. She sat down and we scribbled out the financials. She will have to pay me $$ from her retirement account so that really upsets her. The argument ended with me telling her its not what I wanted but I couldn't stop her. She said she would call the lawyer after she took a nap.

So an hour later she was up and about. Being very pleasant to me. She worked out and then she made me dinner. We had a pleasant conversation. She actually mentioned taking our dogs to our favorite hotel in Vermont. I smiled and said what are you saying? She said oh nothing.

Needless to say she never called the lawyer!!

Last night she sends me an email (we are in separate BR). Its about this biking vacation in CA that we had talked about.

This morning I asked her about it. She said she would rather have this expensive piece of exercise equipment instead of a vacation. We could go in the spring when we have some bills paid off.

Tonight I asked her if she is working or wants to work on the marriage. She said she isn't sure and that it probably won't change. I asked her why is she talking about vacations then. She says I don't know, I thought it would be fun.

So then I said we can work on MR and/or go on vacation but she needs to go NC with OM and full transparency. She said I know.

Last time she came back I was just glad to have her home that I had no stipulations. That was pre DB days. I know better now.