Thank you Sia. Nice to hear I’m not alone. Going through this pregnant definitely made the whole situation worse. As far as I knew we had a very happy marriage. I agree with you if any man did to to my daughter I would tell her to run. He is the love of my life and I just can’t let go. We haven’t even done marriage counseling and have two babies! Divorce just feels so wrong and unnecessary. I don’t want him to regret it when it’s too late. It’s been 4 months since he’s left and feels like an eternity. The more time that goes on the more hopeless it seems. I just want him to wake up from this “fog” and come home to me and his babies. He is missing out on so much. My children will always come first though and being mama keeps me super busy which is a plus. His bday is this weekend don’t know how to approach that smirk going to be tough