Thank you guys. R2C I will look into that book, I have heard of it. Blu, I think I’ll start the list tomorrow morning. That sounds like something that could help me.
After work I immediately got the baby in her stroller and went for a long run. I just needed to breathe. I always feel empowered when I run. I came home and fed the baby and gave her a bath and then made myself some dinner.
Feeling a little down now again. Knowing he’s with her. Knowing he doesn’t reach out to me. It’s all going to take some getting used to. Life feels very different, very sad. I think you’re right and I’ve been in denial and now I’m facing it. He’s been out of the house for 3 weeks now. Maybe a month almost. And he seems ok. And I seem to just now be really facing that he’s out of the house. I am no longer a priority of his and I can see that in his actions. And I’ve never felt that way before. He always made it very clear I was still his number 1 priority. No more of that.
There are lots of things I can do before I go to bed. And I should do them and keep my mind busy now that the baby is asleep. I will try to keep going and keep my mind occupied.
