Thank you for that. I think tonight I need to go back through all the responses and just read everything. I havent really stopped crying today, its been very odd for me. This isnt like me. I usually pick myself back up after a rough morning and I start to feel stronger throughout the day, but today is different. As was yesterday. My intuition is just telling me that something is different. The connection just feels like its totally dissipating on his end. I cant help but feel like he is just falling more and more for OW and its making this all much easier for him.
Theres just been a shift. He is pulling away. I know I stated it earlier. Its the lack in texts, communication has basically stopped through the day with any texts. Im facing it all for the first time, the separation is officially happening. He isnt holding on. I have to let go and pray he will come back but in the meantime find myself again. I know this. I just cant get out of my own head. The emotions have been SO strong the last 2 days its unbearable. Im going for a run after work with the baby. Hoping that will help me breathe.
I really cant wait to see the IC. I need to find ways to self cope. I need to soothe my emotions. I need to stop thought of him and OW. I cant live this way every day. Its horrendous.
