Stay strong, Did. Do not reach out. Don't backslide into those old patterns. Reread Sandi's rules if you need to.
15 months is a long time (I feel like I am one of those people you referenced who is ready to throw in the towel on R after 5-6 months!), but everyone has their own timeline. When you are ready to make a move you will know it. Just do it from a place of strength, not emotion, not desperation. You are still clinging on to what she says and does and trying to read into her words and actions. Let it go.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019