Husband cheated, left, trying SO HARD to DB 2

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God I wish I could get my WW to leave the house. In house separation makes it harder in my case. As far as how long it takes to stop feeling that way....I don't think there is a definitive answer. It all has to do with how committed you are to working on your new life moving forward. I know you hear this from everyone about GAL and we say to ourselves how hard it is, but it is the only way. I'm 49, I'm not ready to throw in the towel right now...if my WW wants out have at it, but I'm not waiting around anymore.

I have been d'bing off and on for 6 weeks now and yeah I have my weak moments but I am doing better and better as time goes on. I know this, when I moved out of MBR (I know I got 2x4'ed because I moved, but actually like my sitch there better) my WW saw this as me giving up and yes she spent 5 consecutive weekends with OM and I was like "great I did this, I gave her the green light by moving out". Fast forward and she was home this weekend, you know why? her and OM are fighting...not over me, over something between them. Their honeymoon is over, they are seeing the real each other and maybe what I saw in W he doesn't see and that is causing tension. Who knows but I bet when they have some more time together they will be like WTF what I am I doing with this person.

I know c r a p p y thing to have to wait for affair to end if it does at all but I know my weekends were much better without her around because I was truly doing things for me...and my son...not waiting to see if WW wanted to do something with me.