I do try to Obey, you are right. I try to take all the advice and then its like I want to react right then and make a decision.
I sure hope this OW flares out. I have been crying for the last 30 minutes. I do not know what is happening to me the last few days. This literally feels like the worst pain I have ever experienced. And I dont know why its been at such an all time high just recently. Its truthfully like I cant get through my days without hysterically crying. I wasnt like that before.
I am really feeling the loss of him because we no longer communicate during the day. He doesnt send me random texts anymore, like he did just a week or 2 ago. Its like we are officially separated and he is officially acting like it, when before I guess he really wasnt. He was constantly temp checking, which annoyed me, but was comforting in a way. And now that has completely stopped. like for the first time he is not at all worried about what im doing or thinking and he is really just living his own life separate from me.
