New thread! Having a rough Monday morning over here. Ive said, mornings are really rough for me. But honestly, the last few days have just been a really big struggle. I know its all because all I can think of his H and OW and im assuming theyre having a blast and just living it up. I know hes CONSTANTLY lying to me. Constantly, I know hes skipping out on time with daughter to be with OW. It makes me pretty sick actually,
I see now how easy I have made this for him. When he texts that he cant come i just make it so simple and ok. EVen though I am pretty certain hes lying to me the majority of the time. I cant wait to wake up one day and this just feel easier.
Ready2Change,
I did read a lot of the posts you suggested, actually I believe i read them all. I think ALL I do is read these days, Sometimes I wonder if Im seeking advice from so many different readings that im becoming mixed up in what to do, but it was ALL helpful.
I am seeking legal advice. I know I need to for me. And I also start IC on Wednesday of this week, which I am really looking forward to.
The only thing that has changed in my sitch is me making a schedule. Ive become nervous Ive just REALLY given him the best of both worlds now. He doesnt have to come here anymore Monday, Wednesday or Saturday. So im pretty terrified I just gave him even MORE of a way to build relationship stronger and stronger with OW. I know I need to face my fears and push forward, but It just really s*cks to be making the right moves going forward, but then to feel like in making them you're just furthering along his great other world he has created.
I could literally feel his excitement when he left here last night. He even went into the bathroom and put water in his hair to kind of style of it before leaving. It put the biggest knot in my stomach. Why would he do that when leaving our home? He doesnt think of how every little thing he does hurts me.
I wish I could go no contact but I know I cant with daughter. I just wish I could do SOMETHING to get his attention somehow. But im just going to keep GAL, 180, let myself have my breakdowns in private. And vent here. He will only see the best version of me. I hope. (still spinning. I know)
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