Need Guidance moving from new comer to MLC,

[marina7]

Thank you DNJ and Peacetoday

Yes unfortunately this is a long battle. I know I can only
control my actions not W. But in that process kids are hurting.

DnJ yes I agree with you W is alot of pain.
I can see it now, W is hurting and I was always the fixer
And I can't fix this I can't take W pain away I can't do
anything. I know is hard wanting to protect her and tell W
Your Amazing, Your beautiful and Your safe with me

But I know I can't I been fired from that. All I am doing now
Is protecting the trio's that's all I can do but for now I only
Can with d10 and s9 as s10 is with W.

Peactoday,
I hope to God that W would come to her mother sense
Before things get worse.
I know W is drinking kids have made it aware. Ow drives
While W drinks while they are out eating. Is like OW wants W
Drunk d10 said OW kept ordering drinks for W. Smh

W has a alcoholic dad who physically abused W mom for 18yrs
W didn't want to be him now W drinks like a sailor. So W
new addition is alcohol and shopping kids say W has bags of
Cloths still in closet always buying. So shopping has gotten worse

Yes as W yelled in mediation I am the cause I broke her.
I know it's not my fault, I know I only can be her light house
For her. But honestly I would be her lighthouse as her mother
Kids not sure I can ever be with W. W done so much damage
That I at the moment am just our kids stable parent.

Is going on 1yr 7months and no sign of nothing just W
Angry,happy sometimes just a blank look. I have stop
Looking what stage W in. I been focusing on me.


Since Text I been staying low but also
Not letting life stopping me. I do believe W is trying to
Intimidate me. I can see W having OW or New friends
Who knows what W has plans but as I said I am a
Mother first and that won't change I won't be scared
Or threatened. I know that God has his plan.
I am just following his lead

Is sad that last week in kids therapy we talk about a safety
Plan whe we are together if something happens or when they
In W house. I did cried because I never thought I would have to
Protect kids from W.

This woman was supposed to protect our kids
W wanted to be there mom now W is the monster the stranger
I am trying to protect our kids from. Who would have thought that.

Been doing lots of self care. Went to dinner with my friend who
Loves kids and cares for me. Friend is there and listen she doesn't
Give her input. Just listens and when I don't have kids she knocks on
Door says let's go your not going to mope around. So
Dinner then drinks at sport bar. Just had a wine and water
And then seen the movie Crazy Rich Asians.
Btw great movie laughed so hard. I caught friend staring at
Me while I laugh friend said finally glad to see that smile I have known.

It was weird going out with another female it was weird.
Felt sad then happy.

But like my mom said that's normal feeling.

I know I truly thought W and I would die old or I would
Die in W arms. As many of you know am sick.

But this is my new life. So taken it
One day at a time
One hour at a time
One minute at a time
One second at a time

Walking with God.