Thanks rouky. I have to volunteer more for pta. The problem is when i do that, it takes away time spent with my son. I do volunteer with his scouts though. And i did well socializing at a recent school event and other moms were interested in meeting up.
I was voicing my jealousy over ex's new girlfriend. Technically she is not a OW. A friend told me "Hope she doesnt care too much about financial stability". Lol.
I guess i still have feelings for him. I am still not neutral. It does not mean i would still get back with him i just want him to be remorseful. To be sorry. To own up. To take responsibility. To just tell me the truth. That was the hardest all those years. Never knowing.
