How long do I allow this freedom and for him to continue this relationship with OW before I just say I want a D? I don’t know how long I can do this. This limbo period of separation feels absolutely horrendous. He didn’t come see daughter last night because his friend hurt himself on their job and he said he had to take him to the ER. Then he sent me a pic of his friend in the hospital and told me what happened, but I know he went on with his night out drinking with the OW. I just don’t know how long I can live like this. I feel like I’m in absolute hell and like he just thinks he’s got his OW to have a relationship with and then on the other side he’s got me being civil and friendly and he gets to see his daughter and it’s just all the best case scenario for him. He’s getting to solidify his relationship with OW everyday and there’s nothing I can do about it. I have to just stand by and be the lighthouse and I feel like I just want to break down. I won’t, but I feel like it.
So many times in church I had to hold back the tears. I miss my H so much.
