It’s been a few weeks and things really haven’t improved despite me doing me, frequenting the gym, keeping busy, etc. we hardly ever talk in the same house.
Tonight, after a couple drinks, she said she wanted to talk. She is adamant in that she wants a divorce. Just completely done and has been for months. No romance and sees me as a gay best friend (She says she knows I’m attractive but there’s no spark at all). Asked about when we can sell the house, split assets, the dog, etc. I probably didn’t behave correctly here in that I got choked up a couple times asking questions such as “how are you able to block out all the memories” or “I’m surprised you never really tried”... it’s tough to act perfectly when the inevitable is taking place.
I told her she can hire a cleaning service and landscapers and can list the house/split assets and we will see how fast it sells. Feels like I never really stood a chance here. Not sure if anyone has recovered from a situation this deep, but it certainly feels like a lost cause at this point as we move closer to an official divorce.
