The baby is napping and the quietness of this house is killing me. I’ve stayed busy all day but I’m starting to really see how different my life is now. We used to have such fun weekends. Even if my H worked, we always had things planned to do or we had each other to hang out with. I feel overwhelming sadness today, feeling super lonely and just like I can’t believe this is my life now.
I have tons of friends and family, but I just want my H. I miss my best friend today a whole lot. Not sure why I’m feeling so low today. I’m sure it’s normal for some days to feel this bad. It’s a day when I don’t see light at the end of the tunnel. I don’t see how my life will ever feel as full of love as it once did.
Just such a different life, so lonely. I feel as if my husband is out living this exciting new life, doing things with other people that I’ve begged him to do with me. And that him me and the baby should be doing together, and I feel as though he is doing it now with new people. I don’t know this, I just feel this way. I hope I’m wrong. I just can’t imagibe him EVER coming back when he’s got such excitement in his life now or something with this new life.
I know this is all focused on him. I’m just struggling this weekend big time.
