No advice here, just that you seem to be in a similar place as me. It's tough. I at least try (not very successful all the time) to remind myself that where I"m at now is much better than where i was a few weeks/months ago.
I can't argue with that.
M 53 W 54, M since 98 D15, D19 8/2013 discovered EA, W maintained contact with OM until 10/14 7/2/17 W said she wanted S, 7/25/17 moved out of MBR 12/17 W says moving out 5/18, W still in home.