Update. W is still in the house and W has been talking more and more about our M. W said we should go on a date or two. We have been on 2 dates in 3.5 years since S was born. Last time we spoke about our M, she instigated. She complained that now I'm becoming too connected and involved. This after 2 months ago she asked that I become more connected and involved. She actually doesn't remember much of what shes said in the last 2 months. Her talk also made it fairly clear that she has put OM on hold and hasn't ruled him out. She is truly lost.
My personal therapy is going well. Therapist says I'm doing all I can do and am doing all the right things for myself. He even hinted that I should consider if I deserve better or not. I think I do and have taken a giant leap in detaching. Daydreaming about single father life all the time. I'm going to be ok. Actually, the path to R looks to be more troubling than the path to D. I've put a soft deadline on how long I can go like this.
