DB / Detach- Will we ever piece it together

[Did]

When she was looking for rentals our house hadn’t sold yet. We hadn’t split finances yet. I also was trying to buy time at that point we had done mediation and were going to divorce. When she moved and I started paying her support she relaxed and we were able to get along. Getting free money makes it pretty easy I guess. I talked to the landlord about getting off the lease... I may be able to do that because she now has money. But still 0 income.

Had an alumni game back at college last night where W and I both went to school. Other guys kids on the sideline, wives there showing fam pictures and stuff. Tough.

Have been barely talking to W. Miss her a lot. I’ve been thinking about hypothetical futures too much. Haven’t been showing her any of that side. Damn it’s hard.

W has recently started to compliment me on hair / looks but catches herself. Has hung out when picking up D4. Maybe like picnic analogy. Maybe I should tell her I have to go and not be available when she picks up.

Want her to see me as the guy she’d be a fool to leave. Going to keep at it. Thanks for support