Getting Back to my Old Self

[DonH]

Well, tonight starts my string of gigs through the next weekend - although one for tomorrow (Saturday) bailed yesterday Long story that just points to the hap-hazard, lackadaisical operations of the band leader for this one but I guess all things considered I should be thankful for the break.

Since re-meeting on June 9, this week has represented the very least in communication between wild girl and myself. Sort of amazing how things go from talking for hours several days a week together with a fair amount of texts, to near silence. Just as amazing is how that change has happened seemingly overnight. We did talk two days ago on Wednesday, with her actually initiating that. We were both watching the ballgame on television from our own respective living rooms. I kept it very casual and in fact thought we were done several times only for her to come back with another comment before finally saying goodnight like she often has. Then nothing yesterday although that's her 12 hour day at work so not totally uncommon.

My mom had her hip replacement earlier today so I'll update Wild Girl on that while on my way to her area to perform tonight at a wedding. I'm kinda sad that I don't really miss it all that much. Perhaps this has forced me to take off the rose colored glasses and look more clearly at what I saw and reported back in June when this all started. I'm not giving up, mind you, just that I guess if it were to stop completely, I won't be missing all that much. I honestly don't think that will happen. I more see that we'll cool things for awhile, they may pick up again and we'll just go on the cruise, likely have fun and rekindle or that will formally finalize it. I was very clear about her not backing out if she agreed to go so I highly doubt she will. Plus she just told her parents 5 days ago! The bigger dilemma would come should I meet someone else and have another 3 month run like this one. That would be difficult, but let's not put the cart before the horse.

Of course, I might end up talking with her this weekend and whatever is bothering her could be passing and things could be back to normal - who knows? I think if anything I'm more sad about potentially losing SOMEONE to do what Wild Girl and I have been doing - less than losing Wild Girl herself. Make sense? And that may sound crass but I'm just trying to be as brutally honest as I always try to be. Of course we cold go right back to where we were in July and August as well - who knows? Time will continue to tell. Plus, with 10 gigs, well now 9, starting me in the face over the next 10 days, who knows who I might meet along the way?

Just thought I'd provide that update. Dang, I do have to admit that these are not nearly as much fun as some of the past Tuesday morning updates I've had. Once you start... LOL