One minute I feel super confident and fine, and the next I feel super sad and wonder what hes doing with his time and if hes falling in love with this OW. This is such an awful thing to go through. And I already know when he shows up tonight im going to smell beer on him. He spends such little time with D each night, like an hour each night before she falls asleep on him. And he just chooses to spend his time doing God knows what and lies and says hes working. I know if I drove by the bar I'd see his car half the time. But I avoid doing that because it gets me nowhere.
I dont know that anything gets me anywhere. In reality everyone has says, nothing I do will change what hes doing. I wish I didnt want to be with him so I could really shock him. One day maybe.
Going to dress myself up after work, makeup on, look great, feel great. And leave when he gets here and go do some things for myself.
