MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART XII

[ItHurts]

LH, you are taking everything out of context LOL! We were watching a movie when I rubbed her back because she was in serious pain...it wasn't me slowly dropping her bra straps and gently caressing her as I massaged her LOL! It wasn't the sensual moment you apparently think it was, it was for true pain relief LOL!
As far as being in her bed, we were both puking bro...sick... hungover. So this also was not sexual thing. As I recall that's when she said that actually before I ever went in there...I was on her couch.


Yes, my remark was a bit egotistical I suppose but you know what? So what if it is? This woman walked out on me 4 years ago, with absolutely no warning, after almost two decades together! Now here she is, showing NOTHING except that she wants me back in her life and all you ever want from me is me to just bang her!! Screw that! She wants me, then she can come get me!!!! If she doesn't want me...then I will make her eventually want me. But I'm not going to chase her. Forget it. I don't need her for sex. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't kick her out of my bed for eating crackers, but it's not a top priority for me. What is a prirority of mine is to make DAMNED sure if we wind up in the sack, it's going to be via HER initiation, not mine. So that's it.

So yes, she doesn't like long periods of time without sex and I know she's not getting any, so I think she's getting sexually frustrated. That partnered with the fact that she habitually hangs out with me as she does, and that she is familiar with me, then yeah, I have a huge edge in the sex department. That's not meant as a measurement of some juvenile schoolyard talk of "How far did ya get with her?" or "What base did you make it to?"

Trust me, I know what I'm doing with her...she's doing exactly what I want her to do. She keeps initiating the contact, every single time, she keeps being forced to come out and ask for me to spend time with her because I never even contact her much less initiate meetings; basically she's clearly needed me in her life and she's slowly getting reattached. Early on when she first contacted me after years back in the Spring I wasn't sure how to proceed, how to not scare her off. Well the arrogance you sense is me now obviously and clearly seeing that she is doing anything but running away. She clearly needs me, my presence, my soul, in her life. Deep down she knows why too...so I let her do what she does and I do what I do. We could both date a half dozen people before we ever get back together but really, who cares? If you're happy every day you don't sweat a "mate." You let fate handle that. My life will lead me wherever I'm supposed to go...just like it delivered me from the bowels of hell when she first left me. Now I have the power, I don't really care what she ultimately does. I'd like to R, but if we don't we don't. It doesn't mean I can't be happy with some other girl who comes along.