Just my nightly update. He showed up late around 7:30. He texted at 7 saying he was on the way and then called to make sure that was ok.
I was finishing up feeding the baby when he got there and he was freshly groomed with a new haircut and like he had just showered. Immediately I’m annoyed by this because I think to myself, who is he getting his haircut for?
I told him it looked really nice, because it did, and he said thanks and that he finally found a good barber. When he sat down I could smell alcohol on him immediately. So he’s showing up late on a day when he had time to go get his haircut and get showered and drink all before coming to see D. Beyond frustrating. He told me he is working an hour and a half away right now so he will be over around the same time tomorrow and Saturday night. Of course I think he’s lying but again; believe none of what they say. Oh well, more time For me with daughter, and I’ll be sure to look amazing when he shows up. nothing I can do about anything he does as long as he’s communicating with me about times to see daughter. So I said ok.
I really pulled back tonight. Mostly out of sadness. Him coming in with a brand new haircut truly upsets me. He was doing this when seeing the first OW. He’s trying to look nice for someone else and that hurts. And here I am changing out of shorts before he comes over because he’s upset he thinks IM wearing them for someone else. What is wrong with us?
He’s in a great mood and nice as can be tonight. Clearly because he’s had a nice fun day of a haircut, drinking and now hanging with his daughter. And prob meeting back up with OW as soon as he leaves. I read today from Neffer’s post that not all WS are living it up and having fun, a lot of them are suffering emotionally from everything. But when my H comes in how he did tonight, seems like he has no worry in the world!! He seems happy as ever!
He was giving D a bath and started talking to me about something going on in his family. I sat down and listened and said a few things and then got up to head out. He really could not care less about what I’m doing. He is living it up.
Clearly I’m doing a GREAT job taking all my focus off him (sarcasm). I can see now why he was getting frustrated when I seemed so happy all the time. Because right now he seems very happy and I feel super frustrated about it. He just sent me a video of the baby, which I do appreciate when he does. But im Not going to respond. I’m too busy getting my sweat on at the gym SO I CAN ROCK MY SHORTS. hahaha
